Saturday night blog on a sunday...

there were a lot of women in the club last night. it's just funny..as I get older the roles have become switched. I'm in no rush to settle down or wife anyone up anymore...but when I was..girls were playing games like they had all the time in the world. Now they start getting a little older..start putting on some weight..that clock starts ticking and they're trying to scoop something up before it's too late. I was the third wheel last night..since my friend's room mate couldn't come out with us becuase she didn't have her id with her. So my friend was over there acting all couplish with her man and it was up to me to be on my mr solo dolo. A couple girls grabbed me and were dancing on me..didn't mind but it's just so funny when you pay them no mind that's when they pay you the most attention. I didn't capitalize on it though. Certain things hold me back from making a move. Certain people rather. I can't quite put my finger on it..but it's just like well this isn't going anywhere outside of the club so i'll enjoy the moment but i'm not going to ask you for your number or anything. Which is weird because I'm technically single. For now. Lot of confidence..just shy I suppose. Ol girl was straight doing the vagina hand off to me and i was acting like i didn't know what to do with it. Just a few hang ups I need to get over. It could always be worse I suppose. At least they can't say I'm leading them on. The girl was attractive though..but women at the club automatically lose credibility for 1. We're in a club. 2. You have a drink in your hand. 3. She's with her friends hyping her up. 4. The women are outnumbering the dudes 4 to 1 and it turns into a competition. 5. They're letting all the thirsty ass dudes in the club give them a big head.

A club is NO place to be a gentleman. Sad but true. I think that's why it's so weird for me. It's like skip the introduction lets fondle each other? Word. Later days. peace

I'm not a perfect person..

I'm trying to go go-karting by the end of the summer. I've become a fan of gadgets recently and I really don't know why. I can't afford them that's for sure. The kindle 2 price just dropped. What's the kindle 2? Well it's basically a device to read your ebooks on..it also comes with a web browser. I don't know..throw a web browser or wi fi capabilities on a portable device and I'm all in. First in line. I think i hopped up out the bed and turned my swag on this morning...for some reason I was just in a great mood. I only got about 4 hours of sleep because i was up singing and recording wack music. I can't sing..but i haven't had a good night's rest all week so I was getting a bit delusional around the time the sun came up. Of course I was rapping and recording..but nothing really worth sharing. Just practicing.

My friend I graduated with from hampton is driving down from ct to kick it in the district. I'm in a real positive mood right now. No idea why. Hanging out with miss london on friday. She's been mia lately...
Talking to mg about partying in dc. Had more to post but i lost my train of thought. Going out tonight.

Gonna be by myself this time.

I have had a webcam for a couple of months now and havent even used it. Ive been feeling pretty blah lately. Pretty sure i was getting on miss green's nerves this weekend. It's cool. I mean not really but alright. To be fair I was being an ass from the time we left to go to the bar until the time we arrived back from the bar at the apartment. Fourth of july was cool. I didn't eat much and the fireworks were somewhat nonexistant but we made due. We also had a discussion on what fourth of july meant to us as black people seeing as we were still slaves when america became independent. I love those sort of conversations. Intellectually stimulating. Didn't appreciate being called a jigaboo for saying I don't like tyler perry movies though...what type of sense does that make? Also met miss green's younger sister for the first time. It was interesting to see the two interact like siblings. Reminded me of my brother and I. Speaking of my brother-he and I had a bit of a debate yesterday over the impact of joe jackson. My brother was basically saying michael wouldn't have been the artist/perfectionist he was before he died if it wasn't for joe. He also said we probably wouldn't even know who michael was if it wasn't for joe jackson. Eh. Meh. I'm all michael jacksoned out for the next couple of weeks(not his music..just talking about the man and his impact and all that jazz.)
MG walked in mean mugging but what else is new. Old broad has left me alone for good. WG has gone away to jamaica so I don't really have anyone to email back and forth about how boring the job is. Just killing time I suppose. Solo indeed. later days. peace

Wrong side of the bed

I feel like there's not enough caffeine in the world that can brighten my day today-for whatever reason. I can't quite put my finger on it but I find myself getting really irritated and annoyed at every little thing. I hopped up out of the bed this morning like "eff yall. burn in hell. die slow." for no reason. It's weird..because on the outside I'm being a grumpy old man and mean mugging..but internally I'm thinking to myself "wow..it's not that serious..why am I in such a bad mood?" I can't explain it. Mean girl and I over here having moments and being terrible people at work and talking about the coonery that was the BET awards(which i enjoyed but won't admit it.) Mean girl has been cool in my book ever since she told old broad to "stop looking up vacations you're never going to go on because you can't afford them" in which i did an and1 style flooding of the court and a head nod in her direction signaling a silent high five. I'm pretty sure old broad and mean girl are cool(to an extent..) as in they can coexist. Damn I work with a lot of females. Chilled with miss london the other day. We went to see transformers 2. Didn't get to see all of it...she owes me a movie. There were about 30 minutes left. Transformers was a long ass movie though. We'll be seeing far less of each other anyway-unfortunately. Twas nice while it lasted. Mean girl was trying to explain to me the difference between a new york bagel and a regular bagel. It's all in a name am I right? She's like "ooh i've been craving a new york bagel for so long" Have you? She went to some fashion school in new york..she wants to live a certain lifestyle. I don't know why but that seems to be her thing. That's cool though. Can't be mad at her for that. Lunch is so far away. Looks like my bug bites are going away. I had a picnic planned for friday but it no longer looks possible-perhaps saturday? Anyone want a baby turtle?

Speaking of babies....these past 3-4 years..everyone has been getting knocked up and for what? I still have loans to pay off and high ass car insurance..you think i have time to be looking after the peasant baby of some hoodrat i knocked up? no sir that aint me. a bit harsh...but all in jest of course :). peace

Blah blah in the blah blah.

So i'll be reading to a class of second graders tomorrow. I'm kind of nervous about it. The thought of it is slightly more terrifying than any stage I've ever been on. Guess we'll see how it goes.
I hate to reference this movie..but it's very much like the obsessed at the work place. A woman is out there peyton manning her vj at me and it's at the point where I get mad. I want to yell at her. I want to be like look leave me alone. Nothing against her..but it's just like stop putting me in this position you know. I'm single...but it still rubs me the wrong way you know. Stop acting like a smut. How do you expect me to respect you? It's very difficult..and I get mad at myself for thinking disrespectful things sometimes but she's just been real innapropriate as of late. I did feel bad yesterday as she was making a genuine attempt to be nice and invite me to this hip hop show that's going on in the area. She handed me the flier like "Here's something I thought you'd be interested in. I was wondering if you wanted to go with me." In which I politely declined..and just like that it's like she flipped a switch and was back to acting ridiculous. Someone told me she's trying to get cut. I have no comment on that.

I want to see the terminator movie. Guess I'll have to see how this weekend goes. My friends are moving to alexandria...looks like I'll be the odd man out yet again, pun intended, as they move closer and closer to dc...and I remain at home...being a bum. Imma need this law school thing to pop off..but you can't rush progress they say. All in good time.

These mornings have been surprisingly cold recently. I have no interest in checking out the eminem album.
Went out went with my friends this weekend. It was cool. I have to say I did envy my friends dancing. The thing is..we were at a bar..it was a nice mixed crowd..but the people in there weren't really dancing on beat and I felt awkward and uncomfortable dancing with them. Imagine that..feeling uncomfortable for being on beat...they kind of just hopped around. It was cool though. I had a fun time. It was raining hard..but you can't really complain if you have an umbrella. More than words she says. Dreams don't fail me now..so far so good. It's kind of weird but borderline deja vu. Nothing out of the ordinary but it is what it is. What's in a name? She was a fan of jon and kate plus 8..just look at them noooow. No excuse for cheating..she did treat ol dude pretty bad. I felt bad for him. I've found that it doesn't take much effort to be twice the g that i appear considering that I don't posses much g-dom on appearance alone. "My stomach hurts" Is that like a catch phrase for women? Goodness. peace

Where do I begin

Caps really dropped the ball last night. Luckily I hopped off the bandwagon just in time before it went up in flames. I'm back to not watching the NHL playoffs again. The nba playoffs have been cool. Going to dc on saturday. That should be interesting.

We were having a heated debate yesterday on who's the better artist..michael jackson or prince. No offense to prince but I dont even think it's close. Funny though..people have said the same thing about michael jackson. I respect prince..but over michael? Come on now...

In typical fashion I will do my best to not name drop while writing my blogs. Funny, because most of the people who will read this probably know who I'm talking about anyway. That's neither here nor there.

I got a voicemail yesterday. It really helped me put things into perspective. I appreciated it. Mr. jump to conclusions over here. I did save it to remind myself how much of an ass I truly can be at times. Still mad at the disrespect but I wont get into that i kicked the habit. Despite the assumptions and finger pointing not much has changed as far as the friendship. I'm thankful for that even if there were issues.
Third wheel much?
Good terms. Something like that. But I put myself in his shoes and know it's not my place. So I do what I have to.
Looks like I won't be going to dc tonight. I'm mad mocha hut went out of business. That was the spot. Busboys and poets? We'll see. I'm in the mood for some mexican hot chocolate. I think they put coke in it. No, not literally but it's probably just as strong if not stronger than coffee.
I've had some weird dreams over the past few days. Last night was interesting. I was at work. Next thing I know I was carrying people on my back and running outside..then the shit turned into a musical. Why?
I do think my dreams mean something to a certain extent. I've had a few that have stood out recently borderline deja vu.

One thing is for sure..i can't call them boring. I'm sure my recap of the weekend will be a little more enjoyable than this rant. Change of pace..and i'm gone. peace

Guess I'm officially blogspotting.

She has self esteem issues. I guess I can attribute her insecurity to a lot of that. She doesn't seem to have much trouble with self esteem. I guess I can attribute a lot of her arrogance to that. She's needy. She's annoying. She's cool but I don't want to fuck up the friendship if something goes wrong. She's boring. She's judgemental and paranoid. She's gullible. She's fickled and loyalty comes into question. She's scared. She's damaged goods. She's interested in a friend of mine. She's mentally and emotionally unstable. She's a bum. She's waiting for her ex to come around. She's trying to get married yesterday. She's dumb as rocks. She's an inigma. She doesn't know what she wants. She has kids. She's too shy. She's too loud. She smells. She's gross. She thinks she's one of the guys. She's too old. She's too young. She's helpless. She broke her word. She's married but doesn't wear her ring. She parties too much. She lives too far away. She lives too close. She's in love.


Oh...the women that bulldoze their way through the revolving door known as my life have some interesting character traits...

peace.

She was like yeah I'm twi. What? Totally with it..t-w-i

I seem to be a victim of tmi. For some reason people feel the need to open up to me. I don't mind it..most of the time. They know I'm good for it. It's just sometimes it catches me off guard. I'm just sitting there minding my own business..and next thing i know..i get hit with some unsolicited personal information.

Oh hm. Perhaps I should continue with my review on the dream album. Love vs Money. I mean what else is there to really say that hasn't been said already. The songs I liked-I loved. But there were like 2 or three songs, much like on his first album that were straight annoying and made me be like wtf dream? I gave it a 4 but I feel like the average listener would give it a 3.5-4. His last album was a 4.5 out 5 to me. I'm a little reluctant to post on blogspot because when people refer to "all those out there in the blogosphere" they're generally referencing this site. As you all know...I'm late on everything. But this is nothing more than to express my rant and raves. I forgot all about this site for awhile. Ya'll messed up.

Notorious

So I went to go see notorious today.  It was a pretty good movie.  Granted it looked like a made for tv movie, it was still pretty good.  I have a soft spot for hip hop movies.  It was really cool to see him evolve as an artist.  How dark and depressing his music started out, but by the end of the movie he was making songs that were a little bit more uplifting.  Granted he still talked about fucking bitches and getting money, but the way it was portrayed was nice.  You know he was trying to straighten things out with his baby mama, and his mistress, and his wife before he died.  It was all touching really ha.  Nah but I was kinda down leaving the theater because I remember when biggie died and not wanting to believe it happened.  I don't know why but whenever something like that happens I always assume it's some sort of joke.  Biggie isn't my favorite rapper, but this movie made me appreciate his music that much more.  No one looked like who they were supposed to be.  Biggie looked like biggie...kim looked like kim and faith could pass..everyone else...I was trying my best not to laugh when I saw the dude they had playing suge knight.  The guy playing tupac? pfft.  And you know puffy would've been down to play himself.  He would've made the movie all about him though.  It'd be notorious starring P. Diddy. It was definitely a made for tv movie all growed up stylee.   

I had fun at the bar last night.  I ran into to some people I went to high school with.  That was an interesting experience.  Didn't get in until 5:30 am.  Looks like i'll be burning the midnight oil tonight as well.   All I want to do is listen to music, record, and talk to people about hip hop right now.  I'm in a "hip hoppy" mood after seeing that movie.  Ha.  

Oh...by the way..I don't know anything about html....as you can tell by my layout.  I dont plan on changing it.  peace

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